AM I WRONG?

Am I wrong, for calling someone a cheater after he admit it himself publicly? Am I wrong, for breaking a relationship because I KNEW there was something wrong that I needed time to heal myself first? Am I wrong, for trying to still be friends with him after the break-up? Am I wrong, to even spend time with him on his birthday because I still care? Am I wrong, for trying to prove my point after all the hurtful things he said & done in our relationship? Am I wrong, that I, myself have tried to give so much into this relationship but didn’t deserve what I wanted back? Am I wrong that all I asked for was trust & honesty ever since the beginning of the relationship? Am I wrong for still staying? Am I wrong, to think & care for him before myself in the relationship? Am I wrong, for thinking of giving him a chance? Am I wrong, that after all he put me through I should keep things bottled up to myself? 

I’m not. As much as I want to say yes, I’m wrong. I’m not. Truth is, there’s 2 sides to every story. Everything that everyone can see is only through their physical outlook yet, they don’t know the story behind it. I don’t get that. As much as there’s so much pride to be saved. I’m not for it anymore.

I’m wrong to put him on blast. I’m wrong to call him a “cheater.” But that’s all it is. That’s all I’m wrong for. It’s nice to know that people will count your wrongs. It’s cool. I won’t hide it. I’ll be straight up. I AM WRONG. But not as wrong. You know? I’ve been so nice, giving, & I try to put on a smile. Putting me down won’t put this smile away. THIS TIME, it’s different. This time, I won’t settle. I won’t make him think that if we just break up he can go back to me just like that. It won’t work like that anymore. I won’t make him take advantage. You don’t understand that I’ve settled for worst before. & When you break trust & honesty which is on the top of my list. We’re screwed. You’re screwed. & I’m screwed. I won’t & I can’t accept that. I understand everyone makes mistakes, but I don’t understand those who don’t learn from their past mistakes. I’m still trying to heal. It’s not easy but I will be strong about it because there’s nothing else I can do. I won’t find comfort & security in a guy. It just doesn’t work like that. I broke up this relationship for a reason & it’s simply to save myself from the bitterness & impatience that I’ve gained in it. I just need time.